01-25-2018 at 03:37 PM
Why Do I Try?I have spent years trying to champion Twin Galaxies and more importantly the gamers and community. So it's quite frustrating and disheartening when I see what is going on within the site and outside of the site. All the years of effort trying to bridge a gap between communities and trying to convince people this is THE place to go feels like it was wasted. I am usually the last one to shine a light on anything negative with the site, but when it directly involves your efforts then it makes a person feel like something should be said. I try to make this a fun place to be involved with, I try to make every gamer feel important, I try to help people understand how to use the website, and I try to grow the community as much as I can. So why do I try? I don't get paid for these efforts, but everything I do is for a genuine love of the scoreboard and community.
To me Twin Galaxies has been an abusive relationship for years, but everyday I wake up and pray for the best. Everyday I log in I try to make people feel like they are important and try to make them feel good about being here. In all honesty I should of left the site years ago after how I and some of my friends were publicly treated by previous owners. When it comes to the site I have been screwed by previous refs, previous owners, gamers, etc, but I always put that behind me and move forward. Let's just say it gets harder and harder to do that after 10+ years.
Recently, I have started the "live adjudication" streams which have been a hit for this community. It's provided a place where people can discuss at length games and the scoreboard itself. I usually put in about 30-40 hours a week with this effort which is a lot considering I already have a full time job on top of that. That's how much I care. It seems to me all of this effort in providing a fun place where people can make friends and discuss their passion is something the people running the site should already be doing.
I guess I'm making this post to share my feelings on everything. As a person that has tried so hard for many years to make this the best place it can be and then in one day see all that effort go down the drain because of one forum thread. It really does make me sad. So I guess I'm at a crossroad... Do I continue my efforts like I have been for years or do I finally throw in the towel? I have made a lot of friends within this community so in a way I don't wanna give up on my friends. I just don't wanna look back in the future at my time here and say "Man... you wasted half your life trying to make the best of something that wasn't even yours and at the end of the day it didn't even matter." As always all I can do is hope things get better and hope the community grows. That's really all I can do at this point.
Thanks for reading,